Having someone look you in the face and tell you a straight up lie hurts more than anything I’ve ever felt. It says hey I don’t respect you enough to give you the truth you deserve. Most of the time I just keep my mouth shut and let it eat me up from the inside. It’s their life they are hiding. It’s not my job to be their caller of bullshit. I don’t care how long it’s been. It still stabs me to remind me from time to time. But let’s get real, no one is 100% honest. We tell little white lies. We say we’re ok when really we’re falling apart. When you’re truth comes out via someone’s elses mouth, that’s the worst. I understand females feel the need to help each other out but sometimes I wish you would just leave me here ignorant and blissful. This world is dirty and sleezy and I’m just trying to get my bubbleness and sunshine back. I’m trying to not let everyone’s self decisions bring me down. They will chose something over you everytime but I have the control to chose myself. Everytime. I want to turn your hatefulness to love. Kill you with kindness. Just got to brush the tears out of my eyes, the dirty off my knees and keep my head up. I want to live. Really live. But let me cry myself to sleep one more time, I’ll pick it up in the morning.
ive got this, right?
Stay classy fuckers ❤